How Soon Before We're Friends?

I have two ex-husbands. I wanted to be divorced from the first one. The second one I threw down a challenge - we had to work on the relationship, or I could not go on. He choose to not work on the relationship. Eventually we divorced after a bunch of drama - he had an extra-marital affair with the secretary of our church, we both ended up leaving the church where we'd been members for years, and sadly, we still work at the same place.

Our place of employment is a high tech firm. We are both firmly rooted in this area. When we are in meetings together or around each other, I feel tense, anxious, and angry.

So what does all this have to do with peace? Well....today the thought crossed my mind that the whole situation could be alleviated if we could be 'friends'. I'm not one to say 'never', but I have to admit chances that would happen are pretty slim. At least as things stand now.

But if we were to be friends, what would it take? What would have to happen? For starters, we would both have to be open to the possiblity. I would have to stop resisting the situation (I'm still very angry over things that happened in the past I consider to be unfair), and he would have to be respectful of a few limits.

I dunno....just writing and thinking about it makes my heart pound. It would seem I still have work to do about letting go...

Until next time,

Peace.